Posted in Body Positivity, diet, Health, Ketogenic, Weight Loss

1 Month on Keto (again!) + weigh-in!

Dear Diary,

I made it!

One month on keto with no cheating, no fake sweeteners, no fake breads….

This past week was my fourth week and things are finally starting to get a little easier. Last entry, I was really struggling with all of my cravings. But this week, I tried to turn my focus on all of the yummy food that I CAN eat.

Strawberries, bacon, steak, chicken, hamburger, sausages, bratwurst, eggs, pickles, cheese, brussel sprouts (which I actually really love!), asparagus, lettuce, tomatoes, green peppers, onions, blueberries, butter (oh, my ‘lanta, so much butter!), avocados, almonds, celery with peanut butter, olives, taco salad, pulled pork…. and the list goes on. Thank God for my taste buds and that I get to enjoy such delicious food!

So, Thursday, the 31st….the big day… This past week felt like it dragged on forever because I was so excited for my weigh-in day! In my mind, I had decided that I was going to set my expectations low. I didn’t want to determine that I had lost too much weight because I didn’t want to be disappointed if I had only lost a couple of pounds. So, 10 pounds, I thought. That would put me at 227, for a weight loss of 2 pounds a week, which is more than I could manage on other diets that I have tried. Yeah, that seems reasonable…

And my plan worked because I was not disappointed when I stepped on the scale and saw 222.2; a loss of almost FIFTEEN POUNDS! (14.8, to be exact!)

What a great month! I’m so so happy with my progress so far. When I did keto the first time, last year, it took me about 7 months to lose 30 pounds and in ONE MONTH of doing strict keto, I’ve lost half of that already! That’s crazy! So, I’m definitely going to stay with doing strict keto (i.e: not allowing myself to have fake sweeteners or bread substitutes made with almond or coconut flour.) This month has been so hard in a lot of ways, but to see that number on the scale and to see (and feel!) the changes that are happening in my body — it’s so worth it!

For the month of June, I’m going to try to strictly track my macros. I eventually want to eliminate caffeine from my diet (maybe in July) as well. But now that I am out of school, I think I will have more time to track everything (which is a pain in the butt, tbh) and that will hopefully increase my results!

So excited by my first month’s results and ready to tackle month 2!

Love,

A Fat Girl

Posted in Body Positivity, diet

I’m Alive!

Dear Diary,

Man! My last entry was kind of a bummer, right?! So, on a more positive note, I just want to remember all the wonderful things about my body.

First, and most obviously, I have to be thankful for the ability to simply live. I only have a short time to be on this earth (hopefully), so I’m thankful that I get to live. I’m thankful that I can run and jump and BREATHE.

I’m thankful for my strong legs that allow me to stand in front of a class and teach all day.

My arms, which are relatively strong for a girl, have been a life-saver in all of our moving adventures (and they’re pretty useful for giving and receiving hugs). What would I do without them?

I have eyes to see the wondrous beauty of this world, ears to hear the birds sing, and a nose that allows me to (literally) stop and smell the roses. Because of my vocal chords and lungs, I can sing and laugh.

Every part of me, down to my little pinky toe has been wonderfully made and I have so much to be thankful for.

So, I may not be able to do a lot of things (like run 5 miles, do the splits or do a pull-up), but I know I have the ability and the tools to keep striving towards those goals, and that’s more than some people can say.

Love, A Fat Girl

 

Posted in Body Positivity, diet, July 2017, Weight Loss

Will I Always be the Fat Kid?

All my life I’ve been the fat kid.

It didn’t help that I lived in France for a while where I towered above all of my classmates in elementary school. Nobody was shy about talking about my weight, not even the grown-ups. I remember one kid teasing me and asking me “How much do you way? 50 kilos???!?!” And I said “No….” (because I actually weighed more than that).

The doctor I went to in France wanted to put me on a diet. I was eleven. I remember him talking to me about the things I should and shouldn’t eat and all I could think was that I don’t make the meals in the house…I just eat whatever is set in front of me and whatever my family is eating.

In high school, I decided I’d had enough and started running every day and basically starving myself. I would skip breakfast, have an apple for lunch, have a small portion of whatever meal was prepared for dinner, and I avoided sweets. Towards the end of that school year, people started noticing changes in my body. But I wasn’t skinny enough to be called thin, even though I had lost a good amount of weight. So, still, I was the fat kid.

So I wonder…when/if I make it to my goal weight, will the doctors still classify me  as “obese” according to the BMI chart? Will people still call me “big-boned” or “curvy”? And most importantly, when I look in the mirror will I be able to see myself as I truly am? Or will I always be the fat kid?

Posted in Body Positivity, Health, July 2017

The Problem with Body Positivity

There’s been a lot of talk in our culture about “body positivity”, and what that looks like. In the ideal, body positivity promotes celebration of your body, no matter what it looks like, and self-love. “You have to love yourself above all else and don’t worry about what other people say or think.”

The message seems to be super supportive and loving, in and of itself, but when you take a closer look,  it’s not actually changing our mindsets.

For example, I was scrolling through my Facebook the other day and came across an article with a headline that read something like this: “15 Celebrities Who Claimed to Love Their Bodies and then Lost a Ton of Weight.” The main point being if you claim body positivity, why would you want to change your body?

Seriously? So, these people who are body positive and are promoting that message get slammed because they made their bodies better? If you love your body just the way it is, does that mean you aren’t allowed to work out or try to maintain a healthy diet and lifestyle? Should you just not care about trying to be healthy because you might change your body and that would apparently go against your body positivity campaign? Ridiculous… Obviously, if you love your body, you’ll realize it is something that you should take care of.

Also, when did body positivity become only about people who are overweight? What about people who have an unhealthy body image who have eating disorders? What about people who just don’t like the way their knees look?

We are at a point now, where nobody can win. Either you are fat-shamed because you are overweight, or you are shamed for losing weight because “you should just love your body the way it is”. Neither promotes a culture where everyone’s body is accepted.

Finally, as a Christian, I have a very hard time when I hear people promoting “self love”. No where in the Bible does it say “you should love yourself”. “Love God“, “love your neighbor as yourself”, yes, but not “love yourself”. Know why? Because we already love ourselves too much.

Does this mean that the Bible is against body positivity? Not necessarily. It just looks different. A Christian should still work to have a healthy image of their body, not because we need to love ourselves, but because God made us in His image and everything He made was declared perfect. He didn’t make a mistake when He created you and when you hate the way your body is made, you are doubting God’s goodness and perfect creation.

The other side of that coin, though, demands that we take care of these bodies we have been given. So, yes, workout, eat veggies, and do everything you can to have a fit, healthy body that is going to bring glory to God. But also realize that no matter how many sit-ups or push ups you do, or how many miles you can run, there will be things about your body that you can not change, and that you just have to accept.

So the answer is not to “love yourself”, but to love others. Because, maybe if we all focus on making somebody else feel loved, instead of criticizing them at every turn, we will all be able to create a culture that is truly body positive.