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1 Month on Keto (again!) + weigh-in!

Dear Diary,

I made it!

One month on keto with no cheating, no fake sweeteners, no fake breads….

This past week was my fourth week and things are finally starting to get a little easier. Last entry, I was really struggling with all of my cravings. But this week, I tried to turn my focus on all of the yummy food that I CAN eat.

Strawberries, bacon, steak, chicken, hamburger, sausages, bratwurst, eggs, pickles, cheese, brussel sprouts (which I actually really love!), asparagus, lettuce, tomatoes, green peppers, onions, blueberries, butter (oh, my ‘lanta, so much butter!), avocados, almonds, celery with peanut butter, olives, taco salad, pulled pork…. and the list goes on. Thank God for my taste buds and that I get to enjoy such delicious food!

So, Thursday, the 31st….the big day… This past week felt like it dragged on forever because I was so excited for my weigh-in day! In my mind, I had decided that I was going to set my expectations low. I didn’t want to determine that I had lost too much weight because I didn’t want to be disappointed if I had only lost a couple of pounds. So, 10 pounds, I thought. That would put me at 227, for a weight loss of 2 pounds a week, which is more than I could manage on other diets that I have tried. Yeah, that seems reasonable…

And my plan worked because I was not disappointed when I stepped on the scale and saw 222.2; a loss of almost FIFTEEN POUNDS! (14.8, to be exact!)

What a great month! I’m so so happy with my progress so far. When I did keto the first time, last year, it took me about 7 months to lose 30 pounds and in ONE MONTH of doing strict keto, I’ve lost half of that already! That’s crazy! So, I’m definitely going to stay with doing strict keto (i.e: not allowing myself to have fake sweeteners or bread substitutes made with almond or coconut flour.) This month has been so hard in a lot of ways, but to see that number on the scale and to see (and feel!) the changes that are happening in my body — it’s so worth it!

For the month of June, I’m going to try to strictly track my macros. I eventually want to eliminate caffeine from my diet (maybe in July) as well. But now that I am out of school, I think I will have more time to track everything (which is a pain in the butt, tbh) and that will hopefully increase my results!

So excited by my first month’s results and ready to tackle month 2!

Love,

A Fat Girl

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Temptations

Dear Diary,

They say there is no greater feeling than being skinny, but, I don’t know, ’cause it feels pretty great to stuff my face with doughnuts.

I am really struggling this week with cravings. It is getting real. I’m on my fourth week and resisting bad things has not gotten any easier! WILL IT EVER BE EASY?! Or will I always have to plug my nose when I walk past a bakery so I don’t smell the freshly baked goodness that I can’t have?

I’m already planning my first cheat meal in my head. Should I even have a cheat meal? Can I allow myself to cheat and then get right back to being strict? What if it makes me lose my progress? What if I just miss cake too much?

Here is a list of all the bad foods that I have resisted eating this week:

Monday: a burger from Wendys, pasta, movie theater popcorn, cake.

Tuesday: Rice Krispie Treats

Wednesday: Didn’t have to resist anything directly, today. I felt kind of sick, actually and had a very low appetite.

Thursday: Today was the day of the big fondue party for my classes. I stayed up until midnight last night making everything; cutting up chocolate, smelling it as it melted in the crockpot. And then I was around it all day today. You wouldn’t believe the number of times that I had to stop myself from popping a marshmallow in my mouth. There were also rice krispie treats there, so…. it’s so surprising to me that it is so easy for me to subconsciously just put junk food in my mouth. But I didn’t cheat at all. I didn’t have a drop of chocolate or one little fluffy marshmallow. I did eat a lot of pickles. 🙂

Friday: Today was the last day of school. We had a day of fun for the students, so I was kept pretty busy and didn’t have much time to think about food. It was a pretty easy day as far as temptations go, plus, I got to run around with the students, playing kickball and sharks and minnows. Good day.

Saturday: Today, on the other hand, was really really difficult. Starting with the good news: I stuck to my keto diet! (Yay me!) and I am really proud of myself. I was doing well in the morning. I got up early and filmed a video for my Youtube channel, drank some coffee, got ready for the day. James and I left around 10 (going to a wedding) and I had enough forethought to pack some almonds, cheese, and water for the road trip. We met up with my brother and sister when we got to our destination and we had some time to kill before the wedding, so we ordered some lunch from a Mexican place. I was looking at the menu, trying to see what I could order that would be keto approved and there wasn’t really anything. But I thought I could just pull ingredients from the menu that I knew would be keto and have them put it all in a bowl (like a burrito bowl). So we sent our husbands out to to get the food. My meal came back completely wrong. I had ordered steak with guac and cheese and lettuce (no tortilla, no rice, no beans) and they gave me a burrito (tortilla) filled with steak and what looked like a whole can of beans. I’m not gonna lie, I almost cried. It’s hard enough as it is to resist having a cheat meal and then, when you get something that is so wrong from what you ordered and you can’t eat two-thirds of it….. So for lunch, I basically just had some cubed steak (i did add some shredded cheese to it).

Then, we went to the wedding, which was beautiful, by the way. I love weddings, but I always find them bitter-sweet, so sometimes, like today, they can make me a bit sad. So  I reallllllly wanted those comforting mashed potatos and macaroni when I went through the dinner line. But I didn’t take any. And then, I thought “I could just have one bite of cake…” and tried to calculate in my head how many carbs that would be and wondered if it would throw me out of ketosis. But I resisted that too.

So, in the end, success! But, it was a really difficult day. I was so emotional about having to deprive myself of those carbs and sweets, and feeling that way made me ever more depressed because I feel like I’ll never get rid of my “inner fat kid”.

 

Looking back on this week, I am just so proud (is it wrong to be?) of all the temptations that I resisted. Here’s hoping it gets a little bit easier in the weeks to come.

 

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Keto Diaries Week 3 – I’m craving carbs!

Monday: I did not fast for 24 hours today, like I had planned. James and I ended up having a later dinner on Sunday, and I wanted to eat dinner with James on Monday. So, I didn’t quite do 24 hours, though I did skip breakfast and lunch. I have been feeling pretty tired. I don’t know if it’s because I worked out on Thursday and was completely wiped out afterwards. I also had a pretty busy weekend. I guess it could be an electrolyte imbalance or I could be dehydrated. I’m trying to figure it out, because I hate feeling like I’m dragging.

Tuesday: I’ve felt less tired today. Still not feeling full of energy like I did on some days last week. The school administrators and PTSA keep on putting carb-filled food in front of my face. It’s really awesome that they want to encourage us teachers, but also, I can’t have any of the snacks that they are providing. I should just not even go look at the options. I should just stay in my classroom, away from temptation. But I go everytime and then I’m hangry because I WANT CARBS! 😦 I’m just really craving carbs right now. It’s good to practice saying “no”  I guess I’ll just go eat my salad….

Thursday: I felt super sick this morning (#notpreggers) and I’m not sure what is wrong. I hope that it’s just that I’m dehydrated or maybe I’m not getting enough electrolytes. I also don’t have much of an appetite, which I know is normal on keto, but also I don’t want to put myself in too much of a caloric deficit. Made chicken cordon bleu keto style tonight for dinner. It was ok, but I wish I had made some béchamel sauce because it was just a little dry.

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Friday: James and I are leaving tonight to getaway for our third-year anniversary! I didn’t have breakfast or lunch, but just got a couple of bulletproof coffees from Starbucks. For dinner, we had leftover chicken cordon bleu.

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Saturday: We had an amazing breakfast today of scrambled eggs, bacon and fruit (blueberries for me). The scrambled eggs were sooooo good! I don’t know what I did differently, but they turned out amazingly! For lunch we had brats (mine was bunless) and for dinner we had huge ribeyes with brussel sprouts and I’m so bummed that I didn’t take a picture of it because it was beautiful and it was delicious!

Sunday: This week started off kind of poorly. I felt really sick and tired. By the end of the week, I felt pretty good, though and I’m proud of myself for sticking to keto and not cheating. I am really craving carbs and I’m not sure that is something that will ever go away. Still haven’t weighed myself (weigh-in day is 5/31!) but I feel like I can tell a difference in my body composition. Other people might not be able to, but I can feel things tightening up, which is super exciting!

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Keto Week 2

Monday: I’m fasting today. I feel pretty good! I haven’t experiences very many hunger pains and I have been keeping my mind busy, planning fun activities for the summer. James and I went shopping tonight after he ate dinner and I started to feel a little bit weak towards the end of the trip, so I broke my fast at 24 hours. See, self? I don’t NEED food to make it through a Monday…

Tuesday: Did Intermittent Fasting. Had a bigger lunch (Tuna Salad-YUM!) and felt great!

Wednesday: Typical hump day. I felt a little bit tired but not nearly as tired as I felt pre-keto diet. My mood has been great all week. I have been more confident, and more upbeat than I have been in a while. IMG_0814

Thursday: Did a P90X workout today – chest and back. I’m not going to stick to the DVD’s strictly, yet, at least until I get out of school for the summer, but it’s good to start doing some sort of workout. Right after I finished, I crashed for about 30 minutes on the couch. Went to Chuys for dinner and ordered steak and chicken fajitas without any tortillas.

SO PROUD THAT I HAVE NOT CHEATED!

Friday: The PTSA at school put on a little snack bar for teachers, which was really sweet of them. I walked by platters of muffins, candy, cookies, chips, and popcorn and grabbed a LaCroix sparkling water, and went back to my room and ate my lunch… *high-five, self!* James and I went to Outback tonight and I ordered steak, with shrimp and added on a lobster tail. It came with a side salad and some broccoli. James didn’t believe I could eat it all, but my lunch was on the smaller side today, so I had no problem polishing it all off! I did feel really wiped out today…possibly due to my workout yesterday? End of the week?

Saturday: Such a fun day! So nice out! Planned my meals for the week, took Ro for a 2-mile walk, cleaned the house, picked up a couple groceries, went for a swim, and had people over for dinner!

Overall, after this second week back on the keto diet, I am feeling pretty good! I did really struggle on Friday because I wasn’t able to have any of the things the PTSA brought for teachers, but I am super proud to say that I have not once cheated. I feel like I have so much energy and I can be so productive because I don’t feel like I’m dragging physically or mentally. I also feel like I’ve been in a better state-of-mind and have had a more positive, happy mood (to which my husband will attest).

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No weigh May has been great so far! It’s nice to not have to stress about the scale and just be able to focus on how I am feeling. I took some progress pics, and they look the same to me, but I know I feel different, and I feel like I have lost some weight. But even if I haven’t, I know that my body is changing, and that I’m feeling better, and that is what matters most.

Excited to see how I do in week 3! Going to try to add in more workouts and stay focused on my goals.

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Keto 2.0

Dear Diary,

It has been a week since I re-started my weight loss journey. I thought I would never want to go back to Keto, but I know that it works for me and I loved the results I had last time, so I’m going for it.

I’m being a little more strict this time around, especially at the beginning. For the month of May, I’m not going to be weighing myself (No-weigh-May!), I’m not going to be making any keto bread substitutes with almond flour or using fake sugar, I’m going to eat clean(er) foods, and I’m going to exercise.

My starting weight last week was 237. So we will see how quickly I can lose this time. I hate to set a goal, because a lot of times, they are unrealistic and I just end up disappointed. So for now, my goal is to just stay on track and have no cheat days for the whole month of May.

“You can do it, but it won’t happen overnight. Keep going!”

Love,

A Fat Girl

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I’m Alive!

Dear Diary,

Man! My last entry was kind of a bummer, right?! So, on a more positive note, I just want to remember all the wonderful things about my body.

First, and most obviously, I have to be thankful for the ability to simply live. I only have a short time to be on this earth (hopefully), so I’m thankful that I get to live. I’m thankful that I can run and jump and BREATHE.

I’m thankful for my strong legs that allow me to stand in front of a class and teach all day.

My arms, which are relatively strong for a girl, have been a life-saver in all of our moving adventures (and they’re pretty useful for giving and receiving hugs). What would I do without them?

I have eyes to see the wondrous beauty of this world, ears to hear the birds sing, and a nose that allows me to (literally) stop and smell the roses. Because of my vocal chords and lungs, I can sing and laugh.

Every part of me, down to my little pinky toe has been wonderfully made and I have so much to be thankful for.

So, I may not be able to do a lot of things (like run 5 miles, do the splits or do a pull-up), but I know I have the ability and the tools to keep striving towards those goals, and that’s more than some people can say.

Love, A Fat Girl